“God will wreck your plans when He sees that your plans are about to wreck you.”
It’s a hard pill to swallow but it is the truth. So many times we set out our own plans and begin to pursue them. In our eyes everything is well. What we fail to see is the hidden trap waiting down the road. So God has to step in and allow our plans to fail. Just so we may be protected from harm. To keep us from walking into destruction.
He did that to my 10 year plan. In 2010 I set out a ten year plan that I thought would guarantee success. I begun pursuing a Masters degree and was just waiting for the appropriate time to leave my job. Everything was not alright with my personal life. I needed to get things together but I wanted to push forward. My spiritual life was completely in shambles but I felt that was not important. I was my own god. I resolved to make my way. My friends and co-workers were advancing in their career and I resolved not to be left behind. Private struggles were not going to keep me for living my best life!
As I ventured forward I could not help but feel a sense of emptiness. Something was missing.
One Sunday as I walked pass the radio in the living room I heard a sermon. I do not remember what the Pastor was saying but I do know I had a heart reaction that startled me. Tears began to flow. I was shocked. I could not understand what was happening. I was not a crier. Getting me to shed a tear was a no-no. Nothing could ever move me.
In my book, tears were a sign of weakness. My early years in the ghetto taught me to be tough. I knew you should never allow others to see you crying. Kids who did that were routinely picked on by bullies. So I would never allow tears. Rather than cry I would shut my heart in instances when I was hurt.
As the Preacher continued I realized I needed Jesus. I needed the Savior. For several months I searched for Him. I visited many churches but something was missing. Several months later I came face to face with the embrace of my Savior Jesus Christ.
A few months later He challenged me to lay down my plans and follow His. Trust did not come easy. I was so stubborn. Many times I forgot about my covenant with Him and pursued my own plans. He did not stop me. In His love he allowed me to see the consequences of my action. Sometimes those consequences were very painful. The rewards I envisioned were not forthcoming. I lost far more than when I partnered with Him.
As I reflect on the year that was I am also filled with gratitude for this life. I do not fear death. I am confident that I will see my Savior. I have absolutely no intention of moving away from Him but I desire to finish my race strong. I am not taking the year strong. I want my life to reflect one that ensured the will of God was done. I lost two male friends in 2019 both deaths occurred just days after my birthday in March. Both left good impressions on everyone they met. Yet I believe they finished the race too early. God had more in store for them. I want to empty out everything that God has placed in me. Every drop of talent and gift. Absolutely everything.
When I did not know it God kept me alive. A few years after I began to walk with the Lord He showed me that the Devil tried on many occasions to take me out. Had the Lord Jesus not stepped in I would have died and gone to hell. I owe Him a death I can never repay.
My resolve for 2020 and the next decade is to live my best life. I can only be my greatest when I am working in full co-operation with the Holy Spirit. I am limited in what I can do but He is not.
Me + Holy Spirit = Unlimited Possibilities
For this decade it’s all about the Kingdom.
There will be no limitations that I set on myself. The greater one is on the inside. He is not a temporary guess He is permanently with me. There must be no limits on him. I must turn him loose!
He came to accomplish the will of the Father. So must I be yoked to Him in the work for the Father.
1 I will confess and praise You [O God] with my whole heart; before the gods will I sing praises to You.
2 I will worship toward Your holy temple and praise Your name for Your loving-kindness and for Your truth and faithfulness; for You have exalted above all else Your name and Your word and You have magnified Your word above all Your name!
3 In the day when I called, You answered me; and You strengthened me with strength (might and inflexibility to temptation) in my inner self.
4 All the kings of the land shall give You credit and praise You, O Lord, for they have heard of the promises of Your mouth [which were fulfilled].
5 Yes, they shall sing of the ways of the Lord and joyfully celebrate His mighty acts, for great is the glory of the Lord.
6 For though the Lord is high, yet has He respect to the lowly [bringing them into fellowship with Him]; but the proud and haughty He knows and recognizes [only] at a distance.
7 Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me; You will stretch forth Your hand against the wrath of my enemies, and Your right hand will save me.
8 The Lord will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy and loving-kindness, O Lord, endure forever—forsake not the works of Your own hands.