When Judas, His betrayer, saw that [Jesus] was condemned, [Judas was afflicted in mind and troubled for his former folly; and] with remorse [with little more than a selfish dread of the consequences] he brought back the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and the elders, [Exod. 21:32.] Saying, I have sinned in betraying innocent blood. They replied, What is that to us? See to that yourself. And casting the pieces of silver [forward] into the [Holy Place of the sanctuary of the] temple, he departed; and he went off and hanged himself.
Matthew 27:3-5 AMPC
This is a rather sad turn of events. Judas (Hebrew Judah, meaning praise) repented of what he did. He returned the money and pleaded for the freedom of Jesus. Unfortunately he was too late. The religious leaders wanted blood. Nothing less than the life of Jesus would satisfy.
Had Judas understood the love of Jesus he would not have allowed condemnation to overwhelm him. He was like his forefathers, in the wilderness, who saw the acts of God but did not know his ways. He saw all that Jesus did. He even participated but he lacked understanding of the ways of God.
We must ask God to give us an understanding heart. If we lack understanding condemnation and guilt for our missteps and misdeeds will separate us from the love of our Father. ‘What can separate us from the love of God. Neither height nor depth’. Nothing in all creation!
His love is fierce!
Judas would have experienced the same restoration given to the disciples. They abandoned Jesus. Peter rejected him to save his skin. Yet Jesus came and visited them after He was resurrected. He restored them. He gave them understanding of who He is and all that was said of Him by the prophets. Judas would have received this same gift. All guilt. All shame would have been removed. He would have been restored.
Have you done something that you think is unpardonable before God? He stands willing to forgive all sins. He will remove the burden of guilt, shame and condemnation. Just ask Him for forgiveness. Receive His love and fullness.
If you are contemplating talk with someone. Let them now how you are feeling. Suicide may seem like a solution but it is not. It only removes the possibility of restoration and your experiencing the joy of change.
Prayer for Change
Father, in the name of Jesus. I come before you today. Lord my heart is heavy. I am burdened. I am oppressed by thoughts that are not good. Thoughts about harming myself. I know you love me. I know you can do all things. You said that you came so that I may have life and life more abundantly. I evieve your abundant right now. I believe you are able to make a way when there seems like there is none. I surrender my thoughts to you. Set me free from this bondage. Fill me with your joy and peace. Cleanse me and make me whole. Amen!
Lord Jesus I thank you for answering my cry.
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